Month: October 2016

Depression #MentalHealthAwareness

It’s a rainy day again.
Even if the sun shines perfectly.
The weather app says it’s 25 degrees celsius.
It’s 12th of June, and there is no chance of raining.
But you phone your friends and family, because as perfect as the weather may seem, it still feels a little bit cloudy.

Only to hear the words:
“Get over it. There are people who have it worse.”
You hang up the phone and you again bear witness as the monsters start to dominate your skull.
There is nothing more heartbreaking than not knowing if you can still get through the day.
When the count of your breath depends on the drugs you were prescribed.
When you can hardly get out of bed because of the condition that only a handful can recognize.
And you wish, and you hope, and you hope that they know..
That you’re silently wishing that your life would be as colorful as your brain’s PET scan.

Today Means Amen: Sierra DeMulder x Words Anonymous

Disclaimer: I am not a professional blogger or a writer so pardon if my thoughts are scattered. I just had to write about this experience before all the emotions get forgotten.

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09 October 2016 –  I watched Today Means Amen. This is a Spoken Word poetry night where you get to listen to poets recite or read their poems. Back when I was young, I used to see this in movies. People would go to poem recitals, and I would wonder why would people would want to go there. I felt like it’s boring, and who in their right mind would pay just to listen to poems? But then again, the young me hasn’t encountered any hardships in life yet, hasn’t battled insecurities, hasn’t experienced failures. I watched Today Means Amen to get a different perspective from other people, and just for the fact that I want to know that I am not alone. And it did not disappoint.

Sierra DeMulder also performed with Words Anonymous. They recited poems, not just about hugot kind of love, but they wrote poems with regards to hugot on all sort of things. Feminism, Sexual Assault, Murder, Unrequited Love, Envy etc. My personal favorite is Sierra’s poem about New Years. You can read it on this link (https://sierrademulder.tumblr.com/post/116164719579/new-years-1030).

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Thank you Words Anonymous and Sierra DeMulder for making my soul happy last night. I felt different kinds of emotions. Listening to people like you makes me feel that there are other people out there who’ve had a fair share of grief (and bliss!) as well, and I am not alone in this journey, and that life is a blessing, and that words are very powerful. The world seems so much better with people like you who give me a different (and share the same as well) perspective in life. Listening to all of you last night makes me want to be friends with all of you.

This will not be the last, and I am looking forward to another poetry night soon. <3

Here’s a piece that I’ve written for introvert people. This is not yet finished but I would like to share just the same.

Everyone who knows me would say that I am an introvert.

I am not for concerts, music fests, and everywhere that are loud.

I am not for crowds.

Instead, I find happiness in solitude. I find peace when I’m alone.

I get energized when I am on my own.

But don’t get me wrong, I have friends.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10. No, 9. They’re not much, I can count them with both hands.

But I know I can count on them.